in loving memory of...

ABOUT the WEBMASTER

Asalam o alikum! My name is Tehsin, and I'm Fairygore's tyrannical overlord.

I spend my time daydreaming and reading and going to school and NERDING OUT! I love in-between things like haunted dolls and wood sprites and alivehouses, and I adore the out-of-doors. My ideal fashion sense is somewhere between delightfully twee and office worker from the 50s (I'm working on it.) I get very excited about the things that I like and am an insufferable know-it-all about them all of the time. I don't think of myself as very shy but logically, I know that I am. I write stories about miserable women to cope. I will survive because I am crazy.

A PEEK into my HEART

Colours (hover!)	#93AC53 #9b3b8f #e79397 #7b2020 #3900ff #C6FF00
(Some) hobbies	Writing, reading, knitting, coding, hiking, diary-keeping, drawing
Flavours	Orange, Earl Grey, rose, cookie dough, coffee, caramel
Shows	Welcome to Night Vale, Succession, Mabel, The Walking Dead, I Am In Eskew, Hannibal, Revolutionary Girl Utena, True Detective, The X-Files
Animals	Barn owls, blue whales, rabbits & hares, unicorns, dragons, cats
Video games	Ace Attorney (1-4), Fear and Hunger: Termina, Disco Elysium, Mario Kart 7, Luigi's Mansion: Dark Moon, Resident Evil 4, Detroit: Become Human (sadly)
Seasons	All of them! (But winter a bit less than the rest...)

IMAGES from my SOUL

Twilight and Fluttershy on Abbey road. Twilight says, 'God has a plan for you, Fluttershy, and it's gonna hurt.' Fluttershy says, 'yay.'

Ask Women Reddit post that reads 'Do you know any women who are loners, weird, or socially inept? What are they like?'

Kendall Roy wearing headphones and looking despondant

Anthony Bourdain saying 'I got a serious lust for shawarma' mid-episode.

A man looking back at the cover of the first Ace Attorney game for the DS which has been edited onto the other end of a chain attached to his ankle.

Mao and Nixon having a cup of tea together. The Tumblr post caption reads 'This is how i feel whenever i kick it with a cishet man'.

Minnie le Mew, a crying cat in a 'Bonjour' crop-top and with a bandaged tail.

Twitter post of an open notebook on a dimly-lit desk. Caption reads 'I've got nowhere to go but to the deepest parts of my own mind #myfridaynight'.

Comic of 2 people about to leave a house. One is putting a book in their bag. The caption reads 'I better bring my book in case I want to spend all day carrying my book.'

A man holding a sign that says 'A day in the life of a leftist. 1. Wake up at noon. 2. go to coffee shop. 3. write poem on napkin. 4. quote passages from books they've never read. 5. realize nobody is listening. 6. remain unemployed, drift. 7. blame others. 8. bed.

An arrow pointing at a window in a castle tower standing alone. The arrow reads 'I post from here'

Instagram story text. 'I was never born. My parents found a large clam on the beach and opened it and I was laying inside like a little pearl'

THE NATURE of the SITE

I didn't think much of Neocities the first time I found it. This was in high school, and I had bigger fish to fry. (All high schoolers believe this very earnestly.) I thought it was cool, sure, but it did not hold my interest because not many things held my interest in that time, a condition which only worsened when the pandemic rolled around. I rediscovered it a few years ago, now grizzled and very wise at my old age of 18, and thought I'd give making my own site a go. I've been here since!

As I alluded to previously, I struggle with social media the same way I imagine many people of my age group do. It exhausts me and it bores me, but it's such a convenient escape into something bigger than myself -- something stimulating -- something so, so easy to reach -- that I find it's difficult for me to pull away. When I first started working on this site, I was just looking for something that could be completely my own in a way that no other online space could be. No templates, no algorithms; just me, and what I chose to put out into the world. It was a subconscious desire at first, but it has risen to the forefront of my mind, projected onto the wide screen. It's my web-thesis, and I try to keep it in mind whenever I do anything at all: To be aware, and to be earnest.

Since I created it, Fairygore has spiralled into something I adore. I'm really proud of the hours of work I've put into this site, and I'm constantly looking for ways to expand it and tweak it into something which can fit into the lens of my artistic vision. I hope I never succeed, that I'm always able to change its content, because that means that I'm still changing, too, always changing into a different version of me.

Most of all I want to be genuine and sincere, which is oxymoronic online. I'm curating this space as strictly as any museum director. My site is not me, but it's an extension of me, one I love very deeply, and I'm glad I get to share it with all of you :-).

MY most TREASURED TOMES

As you might have been able to guess, I love books! I spend a lot of time reading and have since I was very small. These are some of my favourite books, or the books that are closest to my heart:

	I read this book when I was in elementary school. It actually kind of scared me at the time, in the way that random things do when you're a kid, but I still really loved it. It's a wonderful story that shaped me as a reader and a writer.

	In the same vein as above, ASoUE is another series that totally changed my life. There's just something about how Snicket writes that's crawled into my brain and made a home there.

	I can't really explain why I'm so obsessed with WHALitC -- every part of it feels so specifically curated to match my interests. It's basically the perfect book.

	Absolutely, hauntingly gorgeous. Will make you cry.

	This was the first collection of Atwood's poetry I ever read. Needless to say, I have read many more since, but Power Politics has a special place in my heart for being, well, the very best one!

	I'm obsessed with Sharp Objects. I've both read the book and seen the show multiple times, and it still sucker-punches me on every new visit.

	This is a translated collection of three tales, but my favourite is The Green Knight. There's just something about Tolkien's cadence that takes my breath away.

	Reading this book is hypnotic. I absolutely tore through it, and I've been thinking about it ever since. Morrison is a master.

	I don't really enjoy Moshfegh's other work, but Eileen is a staple on my bookshelf. I love how character-driven this story is, and I loved letting it take me into all these strange and unexpected corners.

	Who would I be without this book...

	The Elfhame series is my guilty pleasure in that I think it's awesome but the way people talk about it irks me so much that I prefer to not mention I like it at all. Anyway, these books rule.

	The Raven Cycle books are the specialest princesses of my heart. c:

SEE ME on the SILVER SCREEN

Here are some movies that are near and dear to me:

	When I was a kid I loved this movie so much my heart would start beating faster if I saw it around. I don't know why I wrote 'when I was a kid' at the start of that sentence because I'm still like that.

	My fondness for Home Alone 1 and 2 cannot really be overstated. I make my family watch this every winter. We don't even celebrate Christmas.

	I LOVE WHEN EVERYONE IS DOOMED! I had the privilege of seeing the theatrical rerelease with my siblings and it was an incredible experience!

	Everyone says this, but the outfits in this movie are so fun... the montage scene... hello!

	"I feel like something bad is going to happen to me. I feel like something bad has happened. It hasn't reached me yet, but it’s on its way. And it's getting closer. And I don't feel ready. I feel like I can't do anything."

	I hate when older movies everyone says are good all the time are good it genuinely pisses me off like who do you think you are. Being this good.

	One thing about me is that I love a little story about two weird girls who have a very strange relationship to each other.

	I'm not really one for romance movies, but I could watch this movie over and over forever. The colours... the acting...

	This movie had me, like, shaking with glee. I love Macbeth and this is a perfect adaptation AND a perfect movie.

	This movie is SO underrated because it is genuinely incredibly written and animated but I feel like not many people have seen it...

	O sajni re...

	I cry like a BABY! every time I watch this movie which should tell you everything you need to know about me.

	This is seriously the perfect movie, like, everything about it from the score to the visuals to the plot and pacing is incredible.

	This one's so wonderfully weird. I saw it with a friend for the first time in 2023 (I think) and loved it!

	There's a Letterboxd review for this that perfectly encapsulates it that's like: clank clank clank clank "God has forsaken us." clank clank clank clank

	I am sooo fond of these movies. I know everyone's seen them and technically the first is the better one buttt I like this one? So.