I didn't think much of Neocities the first time I found out about it. This was in high school, and I had bigger fish to fry. (All high schoolers believe this very earnestly.) I thought it was cool, sure, but it did not hold my interest because not many things held my interest in that time, a condition which only worsened when the pandemic rolled around. I rediscovered it a few years ago, now grizzled and very wise at my old age of 18, and thought I'd give making my own site a go, and I've been here since!

As I alluded to previously, I struggle with social media the same way I imagine many people of my age group do. It exhausts me and it bores me, but it's such a convenient escape into something bigger than myself — something stimulating — something so, so easy to reach — that I find it's difficult for me to pull away. When I first started working on this site, I was just looking for something that could be completely my own in a way that no other online space could be. No templates, no algorithms; just me, and what I chose to put out into the world. It was a subconscious desire at first, but it has risen to the forefront of my mind, projected onto the wide screen. It's my web-thesis, and I try to keep it in mind whenever I do anything at all: to be aware, and to be earnest.

I do believe that, since I created it, Fairygore has spiralled into something I adore. I'm really proud of the hours of work I've put into this site, and I'm constantly looking for ways to expand it and tweak it into something which can fit into the lens of my artistic vision. I hope I never succeed, that I'm always able to change its content, because that means that I'm still changing, too, always changing into a different version of me.

Most of all I want to be genuine and sincere, which is oxymoronic online. I'm curating this space as strictly as any museum director. My site is not me, but it's an extension of me, one I love very deeply, and I'm glad I get to share it with all of you :-).